Not the post I planned...but this works too.

I had actually begun writing a post about Christmas when my wonderful laptop that is on it's last leg decided to crash and erase everything.  I've decided to take that as a hint and not write the post.  Not now anyway.  Unfortunately it wasn't exactly your typical joyful Christmas post.  Let's just say that this year was filled with entirely too much drama which lead to disappointment.  It's sad, but it's true.  Maybe I'll write about it later on, when I'm not so frustrated.  I could certainly use some advice on how to deal with some of these issues.

So instead I'm going to give you a little pregnancy update.  A lot has really changed in the last couple of weeks.  Just a bit of a disclaimer before I start.  Some of this may seem like complaining.  Believe me I'm not complaining.  I'm just being real and honest about what's going on and how I feel.  I am very thankful that I'm getting to experience this...even if some of it isn't so comfortable.  In fact, a lot of these symptoms have helped this to feel even more real.  Because, well, even at 28 weeks (tomorrow), there are still days that I don't actually believe that I'm pregnant...and that there will be a baby in my arms in 12ish weeks...despite my belly that is growing out of control!

Speaking of the belly.  Wow has it grown!  I need to take another picture.  It's like I woke up one day and it was twice what it was the day before.  It's getting pretty sore feeling.  It's like I can feel my muscles stretching apart.  I've been slathering my belly, hips, and lower back with a lemon and vitamin E oil everyday.  Not necessarily to try to prevent the dreaded stretch mark (from what I understand those are more genetic than anything...and so far I don't have any) but more for the itching.  It really seems to be making a difference.  On the nights I forget my tummy sort of feels sunburned.  You know that itchy feeling a sunburn gives you.  Apparently it was so itchy the other night that I scratched in my sleep until I broke skin.  Not very pretty.

Sleep has been super hard to come by.  I just can't seem to get comfortable.  I had just been using my regular two pillows (one under my head and one behind my back) and added a body pillow I got from Tar.get for cheap.  But that just wasn't cutting it anymore.  I finally broke down and bought a Boppy Total Body Pillow.  Oh my, what a difference!  I love this pillow!  I have slept a lot better since buying it last week.  Definitely worth the $50!

I feel like my body is breaking into a million pieces most of the time.  Everything hurts.  I has some serious restless leg and some major leg cramps.  I have never felt leg craps like this.  OUCH!  They wake me up a lot during the night.  My hips are super sore and so is my lower back.  I'm still having some sciatic issues that make it difficult to walk sometimes.  K laughs at me because I look like an 80 year old woman hobbling along.  It really is a funny sight.  To top it off, my feet and ankles are so swollen!  I have always had nice skinny feel and ankles...now I have cankles.  It's really silly looking.  None of my shoes fit.  I bought some flip flops several weeks back that were a little bigger, however, they aren't cutting it in our unseasonably cold Florida December.  I've been on the search for new shoes but haven't had much luck.  Sneakers seem to be my friend lately, although they don't fit so well either.

One of my doctors mentioned to me at my 17 week appointment that I have a very very short torso.  At that time he said my uterus should be measuring a few inches above my belly button.  However, I was already measuring up to about an inch below my bust line.  I was measuring perfectly for the week that I was it was just higher up than it is on most women.  He said this would make things a bit more uncomfortable as time went on.  He said I would experience some things a bit earlier than a lot of women do.  Well, he wasn't kidding!  I CANNOT BREATHE!  I feel like my lungs have been squished down to nothing.  It is not fun at all.  I feel like I'm out of breath all the time.  And, sweet little Mary-Grace, is loving to sick her feet up there making is oh so much more uncomfortable.

This same short torso issue also seems to be squishing my stomach.  I am starving all of the time but can't seem to eat more than a very small amount.  It's extremely painful if I do.

I'm emotional wreck most of the time.  I cry over everything, happy and sad.  I cried over hashbrown casserole on my birthday.  That's pretty sad.  I cry over commercials and tv shows.  I cry just thinking about things.  I've always been pretty emotional but this is pretty crazy, even for me.  I had a meltdown over crib bedding last night that was ridiculous.  When I'm not crying I find it all pretty funny.

Headaches and Migraines are still the norm for me.  It's pretty much a daily thing.  But, that's pretty much been my life for years.  It's just a little harder to deal with being pregnant since I can't take any of the good drugs.

On the plus side.  I haven't really had any heartburn issues at all.  Knock On Wood!  I think I've gotten it a handful of times.  Not too shabby seeing as how I've heard horror stories.  I've also had no constipation issues.  I've heard that can be terrible too.  I'm very thankful for that!

Mary-Grace is moving more and more everyday.  It seems to be constant and my doctors always comment on how crazy active she is.  Her kicks and jabs get stronger and stronger and can even be pretty uncomfortable at times.  I swear she's doing acrobatics in there.  I like to lay down, flat on my back, and just watch her move.  It's so much fun!

I find myself getting more and more anxious everyday to meet her.  I just want to see her face.  I'm not scared of labor at all (not yet anyway).  Whatever it takes to get here into my arms.  I'm having trouble wrapping my mind around the fact that in less than 3 months there will be a baby in this house.  In my house!  A baby?  It just doesn't make sense.

My baby shower is in just a few weeks on January 22nd.  MY BABY SHOWER!  How is that even possible?  How am I actually going to a baby shower that is for me?  I have longed for the day to go to my own shower.  I'm excited about it but also nervous.  I can't pinpoint the reason why it's making me nervous, it just is.  But I also feel so blessed.  This is all a dream come true.

Prayer Buddy Reveal!

This Advent I had the absolute privilege to pray for Barbie at Pray, Hope, Don't Worry!  It was truly an honor to pray for this lovely lady!

Throughout Advent I offered up many sufferings for her intentions as well as for her husband and beautiful daughter Alana Clare.  I prayed for her at Mass, during daily prayers and any time she popped into my head.

Barbie, I will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers.  I will also include all three of you in my prayer list that will go to the hospital with me in March.  I plan on offering up labor for you and your family as well as for others in this amazing blogging community.  I hope that you had a blessed Advent and a wonderful Chirstmas!


A special thank you to my wonderful prayer buddy Brenda at Life As We Know It!  Brenda, your prayers were amazing!  Thank you so much for praying for me!

Birthday Weekend

K and I had a blast in Orlando for my birthday weekend! It was so nice to get away for a few days and enjoy what has now become a birthday tradition. We can't wait to go back next year with Mary-Grace!

I didn't get a lot of pictures because I just forgot. And what pictures I did get were on our crappy camera. We have a really nice DSLR but I didn't feel like lugging it around. Some of these are iPhone pics others are my camera. Ignore the random date on some of the pics...I told you I didn't like that camera. :)







This is why I love my husband! He is such a goofball!!!







The only bump pic I got at Disney. :( I took my jacket off for the picture and it was freezing!!!







My view of the bump while on It's A Small World. :)







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We went to Disney on Thursday night. When we got back K had a cake for me. We usually have champagne after Mickey's Very Merry Christmas so this year we had to change plans slightly. :)






















The next day we spent at Downtown Disney. We both love walking around there. We had ice cream sundays at Ghirardelli's! Um...yum! We make a pit stop there every time we are in the area. Best ice cream eva!!!! We then had dinner at my favorite place, Bahama Breeze with my friend S and her fiancé.

On Saturday we made a pitstop at the Florida Mall before heading home.

On Sunday(my actual birthday) K too me out to breakfast at Cracker Barrel! Yum again!!! I did have a mini breakdown over hashbrown casserole that resulted in some tears but I won't go there. :) Let's just say a was being a big fat unreasonable baby!

Sunday night we had our last night with the youth group for a few weeks. We've been doing a lot to really teach them about Advent. The head of the youth asked K and I if we would mind dressing up as Mary and Joseph. We were to walk around the room during the story of Mary and Joseph pretending to be looking for somewhere to stay. She joked that we wouldn't need to use a pillow for my belly. :) it was surreal being dressed as Mary while pregnant. I had to fight back the tears.
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Today I'm 27 weeks. THIRD TRIMESTER! Wow! Just Wow!
I still have absolutely nothing done for Mary-Grace's arrival. The room that will be hers still looks like a storage room. I'm hoping to get things moving next week.

I'm definitely getting more and more uncomfortable everyday. All the walking and late nights this weekend really took a toll on my body. My feet were so swollen. Sleep is definitely becoming increasingly difficult and I'm STARVING ALL.THE.TIME! A new symptom also developed this week. Um...the girls...well, they are leaking! Sorry if that's tmi. I knew this could happen but for some reason I thought it was closer to the end. I almost freaked out the first time. I woke up and noticed my shirt was a little wet. I had a dark shirt on and i was all sleepy-eyed so when I looked down my initial thought was that it was blood. I flipped out thinking they were bleeding. After further inspection I was happy to realize it wasn't that at all. Whew!

Mary-Grace will be here before I know it! I can't wait to meet her and kiss those cheeks and nibble her toes. I feel so unworthy!

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26 Weeks!

I'll be 26 weeks tomorrow!  Only 14 or so weeks left.  I just cannot believe it!

I'm definitely starting to feel more and more pregnant by the day.  I feel like every morning I look down and my belly looks bigger than the day before.  I definitely cannot see my toes without really bending forward to look.

We're leaving shortly for Orlan.do and I can't wait!  I'm curious how Disne.y is going to go tonight.  Mic.key's Very Mer.ry Chirst.mas is from 7-Midnight.  I don't usually last that long anymore.  And I got up rather early this morning.  Hopefully I'll get lots of rest while the others are riding the rides I can't go on.


I had an ultrasound yesterday.  It was actually supposed to be on Tuesday but I totally screwed up my appointment time.  I thought it was at noon.  Nope, it was at 10am.  Whoops!  They tried really hard to get me in seeing as how dh took a long lunch to be there are it's almost an hour drive but they just couldn't.  The office was open for only half a day that day and they were jam packed.  Fortunately they had an opening the next morning at 10am so I didn't have to wait long.  But I still lost it when we got in the car.  I just started to sob.  Poor dh, he didn't know what to do.  I don't know why I was so upset.  It's not like I was having to wait long.  I just can't seem to control my emotions lately.


The ultrasound went well but my darn anterior placenta made it difficult to get a great picture of her.  There's nothing we can do about that though I guess.  The tech found a great place where she could see clearly.  There was this great big pocket of fluid.  This would have helped with the view except that my sweet girl had already decided to flip head down.  So the pocked only showed her feet.  Cute as they are I would have loved a full view of her little face.  But what are you going to do?

Baby Legs!  Crossed like a good little lady. :)

Sticking out her tongue.

She's rubbing her left eye.

Big yawn!

Laughing! :)

This one is my favorite!  She's looking down with a little grin.  Her hands are near her chin.  We think she looks like she's praying. :)

Sucking on her fingers.

Resting her head in her hand.  BTW, that thing on the left covering the other side of her face is that darn placenta.

She was so much fun to watch.  We also got a video of the ultrasound.  I'm thinking about editing it and putting it to music.  You can already see that she has such a personality.  She was just so funny.  I think she knew we were watching her.  She had her mouth open the whole time.  The tech kept joking that she's going to be a talker.  K just sort of shook his head an laughed.  Poor guy!  If this is the case he's never going to get a word in.  I have a tendency to talk a bit too much. :)

**Updated**One of those days! Prayer Buddy...I need you!

So apparently you need 10,476 pieces of identification to renew your drivers license as of this past January. My license expires this Sunday and it completely slipped my mind. I went to the DMV today to renew. The nice woman behind the counter handed me a list of the 10,476 things I needed. Of course I had none of them. Fortunately I live only about 5 minutes away so I ran home to get them. After I gathered the ridiculous amount of documents to prove my existence, I hurried back to the DMV. My number got called right away! Sweet! I head up, find out I have to take a new picture...bummer! I look tired and swollen today...and the one on my license is actually pretty good. I had just gotten back from my honeymoon and was super happy and really tan! Oh well...gotta have a license right?

I start handing the lady all the necessary documents when she stops me. I guess the marriage certificate from the church is not good enough. Seriously? Why didn't the checklist I was given specify that? All it said was that it had to be certified. The one from the church had a raised seal. Besides it was the only one I had in our safe. I have no clue where the one from the state is!

Lovely! So she says I can go to the courthouse and get a copy. Um...yeah, that's great lady but I'm one county north of where we were married and it's an hour and a half drive to get downtown. With rush hour there is no way I'd make it there before it closes.

This would all not be such a huge deal except for the fact that we are leaving at noon tomorrow for my little birthday trip!!! I know, I know, I shouldn't have waited until the last second. If I wouldn't have, I could have renewed online and wouldn't need all of these documents. But I did so now I'm panicking!

My options are to try to get downtown and back tomorrow morning in morning rush hour, which will at minimum take 4 hours. And then hightail it to the DMV and pray there isn't a line. But even with that there is no way we will leave on time. The problem with this is that we have tickets somewhere tomorrow evening that we've already paid for so we're already on a time crunch. Or, just renew online. I know there is no way I will get my new license before Sunday, which I can deal with. But, there is a chance I won't get it until after Christmas. Um, I don't think I can not have a license all next week. Kind of a busy week. A day or two is one thing...over a week is a completely different story!!!

I double checked the law and in Florida, driving with an expired license gets you arrested. ARRESTED!!! Um...that's not going to work!

Now, again, I realize this is my fault! I should not have put this off. However, there is something I do not understand. Why do indeed my marriage certificate? I gave them that 4 years ago when I got married and changed my name. I even did that at the very same DMV office! So they're saying that for the rest if my life, whenever I renew, I have to bring that in? Makes no sense!!!! It's not like it changes or updates! I could get divorced and still have a copy if that certificate! I get needing your ss card and proof of address. Heck, I even get the birth certificate! But marriage license? I don't get it and frankly, I'm pretty ticked off right now!

Besides, if you need all of these documents why was that not included in the paperwork they sent me to tell me that I needed to review. That would have been very nice of them! Especially since these are new policies!!!!

So...if you've got a minute and could a spare a quick prayer that this thing turns up, I would be forever grateful!

P.S. I had another ultrasound today. It was supposed to be yesterday but that's a whole different story! It's been a crappy few days! I'll post picks as soon as I can. She's a cutie! :)

**Update**
I spoke with my BIL's girlfriend who happens to be a cop. She said that if I renew online and do not receive my license on time to just carry the print out that shows I renewed in my wallet. If I get pulled over, she said to give the officer both. She said they will take my license because it's not valid anymore but they will just look me up in the system and see that I renewed. She also said that a real nasty cop may write me a ticket for not having my license on me but I wouldn't be arrested. That makes me feel much better! I'd like to not have my mugshot out there for public record. Especially a pregnant mugshot. Wouldn't that be attractive? :)


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Yikes! Two posts in one day!

So I don't want to detract from my earlier post but I just noticed something...

I'm at the 100 day mark! Only 100 more days until my due date! Seriously? I know I say this all of the time, but when the heck did that happen?

I just can't wait to meet her and see her sweet little face! I get giddy and all misty eyed thinking about it. I have another 4d ultrasound tomorrow at noon. I'll be almost 26 weeks! Hopefully I've put some chunk on that skinny little body we saw last time. :)





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Prayer Request for a Stranger

So last night at Mass I took my usual seat in the second row while I waited for dh to finish up some things for youth later that night. A few seconds after insatiable down I realized a bathroom trip would be a good idea before Mass started. Upon my return I noticed a couple in the row eight behind me. We end up sitting near them every week. I stopped and smiled. The woman looked at me, then my belly, then back at me and said hi. I look pretty darn pregnant now do there's no denying it. It's been pretty obvious for a long time now. I'm pretty sure this isn't the first time she's notices.

Anyways. I tool my seat right I. Front of them waiting for K. Then I hear the woman start to tell her husband about a woman she works with who is pregnant. Then she tells him that something is wrong with the baby and that whatever it is is making the mother sick. She said something about it causing the mother some sort of kidney problems. I thought to myself, that is so sad! They the lady tells her husband that this particular woman also already has an Autistic child. I thought, wow! This has got to be a really hard time for this poor mother! The next thing I heard this woman say nearly caused my jaw to hit the floor. She said, "You know, I just don't know why women put themselves through these things! It's just not worth it!"

My first reaction was anger. I thought to myself, what is she saying? Is she suggesting that the woman should just abort the baby because it is just too much to deal with. Is she seriously sitting in church, in front of the tabernacle no less, having this conversation with her husband in a very audible voice? It's not like I had to strain to hear this conversation. I wasn't trying to listen, I couldn't avoid it. And then I thought, my gosh! She is talking about this in this loud voice right behind me, a woman who is obviously pregnant. What if there were some medical issues with my baby?

The whole situation broke my heart. And then I realized that me sitting there stewing in my anger was doing no good. I decided to say a prayer for the woman, her baby, and her autistic child. I also said a prayer for the couple that was sitting behind me. After Mass I told K, the story. He was sickened just as I was. We decided that we would add all five if these souls to our Advent prayer list. All five of them need our prayers.

I thought I would tell you all about what happened because I know what amazing prayer warriors you all are. If any of you have a minute and could pray for these 5, I think that would be wonderful! It certainly can't hurt.


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7 Quick Takes

Before I get started...thanks Leila for answering my question on my post yesterday. It has been something that has been eating at me for a really long time. Noe I wish I could just wish I could get him and the rest of the family to understand this. I feel like he doesn't understand his faith enough to get it and unfortunately neither does his family. They are steering him wrong. :(

So Anyhoo...let the quick takes begin!

1. I'm having lunch with a woman I met through working with the teenagers at church. She is a bit older than me (I believe late 30's) but we have so much in common. She and her husband suffered through IF for 11 years. They just finally had a baby girl this past February. Her little girl is one of the sweetest, most adorable little girls I have ever seen. It's kinda funny though. I always noticed her at church and one day our priest did the blessing of expecting parents at our 6pm Mass. It's never done then. It's always once a month at the 9:30am Mass. I remember she and her husband walking up to the front (he did it special for them) and tears started streaming down my face. However, I stead of my usual sad, poor me, tears I had nothing but tears of joy for them. I did not know them at the time. I had no real knowledge of their struggles. But I just knew. I knew this was special. It's like all of us IF girls have this unspoken bond. What a blessing!

2. It's Friday and I still haven't heard from my doctor about my gestational diabetes test. They said they would call by the end of the week but only if there was a problem. Fingers crossed they don't call today!

3. We are leaving for Orlando in less than a week! Wahoo! I'm such a 5 year old! I live Disney and am so glad we don't live too far. An hour, hour and a half away, tops. My 28th birthday is on Sunday the 19th and we are celebrating with my best friend S by going to Mickey's Very Merry Christmas. We have done this almost every year since K and I have been together. It's AWESOME! I cannot wait! I told K we need to get some bump pictures in front of Cinderella's Castle all lit up! And I. Front of all the beautiful Christmas Trees. One day we can show Marry-Grace her first trip to Disney. And believe me...we'll be taking her with us next year! She won't remember it, but I will! I can't wait!

4. Mary-Grace is moving around more and more everyday! And all of her little kicks are getting stronger and stronger. I can now see my tummy jump when she does it. It's got to be the coolest thing I've ever seen. Sometimes she kicks at the sMe time on opposite sides of my belly. I imagine her stretching her whole body. So sweet! I tried to catch it on video the other day so K could see it. She doesn't like to do it for him. But alas, she must have known it was for daddy. She's a bit stubborn like her mama. :)

5. I'm am just sew stinkin happy for Sew! What a trooper! Hannah has for to be one of the most precious little girls ever! Such a cutie! A 6lb 10oz preemie? That's bigger than I was at full term! And no time in the NICU! And got to go home with mommy and daddy in just 2 days! How amazing!!!!!

6. Hannah's early arrival reminded me that everything is in God's time. We so often make all of these plans and try to plan everything out down to the last detail. We want everything on our own time. But in the end it is God and his perfect plan for our lives. And Gods way always turns out to be better than our way. I find that very comforting. If everything went according to my plans I would be in big big trouble! :) Oh, and it also taught me that I may want to have my hospital bags packed a little sooner than I originally thought necessary. :)

7. I'm going to a special Advent Mass tonight. I wanted to let all of you IF girls who are still waiting know that you will be in my prayers. You are all still always in my prayers. I have not forgotten you. I know how hard this time of year can be. Please know you have not been forgotten and thy I love you all!


Happy Friday! Have a great weekend!


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Thoughts

What am I cooking?
I made BBQ Chicken tonight. Well Kevin actually cooked it on the grill. Raw meet is still giving me the creeps so he's been helping a lot in that department.

What are my weekend plans?
Saturday I'm going to look at some fabric for Mary-Grace's bedding. My MIL is going to help me make it. We may pick out paint colors if I find some fabric I like. Sunday I have a cookie exchange party! Yum!

What are my prayer intentions for the day?
Prayers for my prayer buddy of course! Also my anxiety. It's gotten pretty bad and I'm sure if I wasn't pregnant my doc would be recommending meds. I've been down that path and don't want to again.

What have I done for my marriage this week?
He was very happy with how clean the house stayed this week. I actually stayed on top of it! I also made him cookies on Tuesday.

What am I reading?
For the first time in as long as I can remember, nothing. I just haven't had the brain cells to comprehend much of anything.

What’s challenging me lately? Shaving my legs and painting my toes.

Something that made me think?
The annulment process. Does anyone know much about it. Not because I need one of course! Let me give you a situation (I don't want to name names). Say a man gets a divorce a year and a half after marriage (very sad). He wanted the divorce. He was actually the first to brig it up. The divorce was final about a year ago. He is interested in an annulment but has yet to start the process. He may have a valid case but I'm thinking it's definitely not a slam dunk situation. He is already dating a woman very seriously. Is this ok? I'm thinking no. Shouldn't he seek the annulment first? My thinking is, what if he is not granted the annulment? Then what? Isn't the annulment period (when sought soon after divorce as in this case) supposed to be a time of reflection? I have many more questions on this topic and will more than likely do a whole post about it soon. I just wanted to get a feel for how it works since I have no clue and I'm concerned about said person.

Happy almost Friday!!!!


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First of all, have y'all seen Sew's blog! I just can't believe it! So many prayers going her way!!!!

Second, thanks so much for all of your prayers and encouragement yesterday. Hopefully I won't be hearing from the doctor this week! Although I probably will. They also checked my iron. I have had low iron issues off and on since I was a teenager so I'm thinking that may come back abnormal. I'm ok with that though. I can take an iron supplement, no problemo!

Although I'm still praying for no GD, I'm feeling more at peace about it today. Must be all of your prayers. If I've got it, well then I've got it, and I'll deal with it then. No sense in getting ahead of myself!

So I thought I'd give you a little pregnancy update.

I have been so worried about gaining too much weight. My doctors are real weight nuts and are quick to tell you not to gain too much. The first doctor I saw said he tells all of his women that there is no need to gain more than 20-25lbs. Ummm, most women I know gain more. Anyhoo, I was worried that I had gained a lot over the past 4 weeks because I definitely got much bigger. Well somehow I managed to not gain a pound. Not only did I not gain, I lost 1/2 a pound. Seriously? How the heck did that happen? I am so much bigger!!!! Weight totally baffles my mind. It really is different for everyone in the case of appearances. I'm 25 weeks tomorrow and I've only gained 11lbs. However I look like I've gained about 30. So weird! I could have definitely stood to lose a few pounds before I was pregnant (darn IF, weight gain) but this seems crazy to me. I asked to doctor if I should be worried about the weight loss this month and he said not as long as Mary-Grace is growing normally. Of course I should try to lose but if I'm eating normally and healthy not to worry. He also pointed out that I have nice "birthing" hips so I don't need as much weight gain. Maybe that also explained why my hips haven't gotten any wider. :)

The doctor also measured my belly. I was measuring at exactly 24 weeks. I was 24 weeks 5 days yesterday so that's great!

He brought up the flu shot and asked if I planned on getting one. I told him I wasn't planning on it and he said it was totally up to me but did remind me if the risks. I told him I would think about it but I'm still leaning towards no. If I was still teaching I would but I figure my exposure is really low now.

I talked to him about my daily morning migraines. He said that I can call anytime I feel like the pain is unbearable and come in for some sort of pain shot. I'm going to try to avoid that but it's nice knowing that it's available if I need it.

When we listened to her heartbeat he noted that she was super active. I told him that sugar drink didn't help but that she's alway super active. He liked that and said she must be strong. He said it's very common for women with an anterior placenta not to feel the baby a lot and for the movements not to be strong. She's got strong legs like her mama.

I have another 4d ultrasound next week on the 14th. Wahoo! I can't wait to see my baby girl again!

Other than that I do t see the doctors again until January 4th. After that I go to bi-weekly appointments. I cannot believe it! She will be here before I know it!




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Silly Anxiety! ***Updated

I feel so silly asking for your prayers for this but I've had so much anxiety the past few days about it that I'm starting to make myself sick. Ick!

I've got my glucose screening today at 1:10. That means I will be drinking this nastiness is a few hours.






Oh yummy! I'm just being a bit sarcastic. :)

My mom had gestational diabetes with both of my younger sisters. We aren't sure if she had it with me because she didn't receive any prenatal care. (I don't know if I mentioned it here but my parents weren't married and she didn't tell anyone about me until 20 days before I was born.) I'm thinking she probably had it with me too. Just a hunch. I've heard that it can be genetic so I'm pretty worried.

I don't know why GD freaks me out so much. Everyone says it's not the end of the world. And I know that if I fail this test I may still pass the 3 hour one. I just really don't want to have to even worry about the 3 hour test.

I feel like I'm just going to bomb it. It's so ridiculous because there is no way for me to know that.

I'm worried that if I do have GD, it's going to totally ruin my birth plans. My office induces one week prior to your due date if you have GD. I have been praying and really wanting a natural, unmedicated birth. Induction means Pitocin...and Pitocin is definitely on my "don't touch me with that" list. With Pitocin comes epidurals, and I really just don't want tong there.

I know I'm getting way ahead if myself. And I know that in the end I want what's best for Mary-Grace. I'll do whatever I have to to get her here healthy.

So if you have a second and can say a quick little prayer for me, mostly for peace, I would greatly appreciate it!

Thank you! Thank you!

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***Update***

Remember these...



Remember drinking the melted part? That's pretty much what the stuff they make you drink tastes like. Except that it's like drinking 20 of them. No too terribly bad. It does make you feel pretty bad though. It made my stomach upset and my head hurt. I felt like I was on the worst sugar high ever.

Mart-Grace seemed to enjoy it though. She has been practicing her karate ever since I drank it. :)

Of course I don't have results yet. Thy said it will take a few days. If I don't here anything by the end of the week I'm good and have nothing to worry about. I'm hoping for no phone calls!



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