Prayer Buddy

Prayer Buddy (and anyone else who would like to say a prayer or two), I have a request.

I was planning on delivering Hannah with the same doctors and hospital as I did with Mary-Grace. Although it didn't not end up being unmediated as originally planned I did not have a bad experience at all. However, for the past few weeks home birth has really been on my heart. The main thing that deterred me with MG was that the closest hospital (with maternity ward) was 45 minutes away. I worried that if there was an emergency, it would be a really long trip to the hospital even via ambulance. Well, halfway through my pregnancy the newer hospital that is about 15-20 minutes away opened up their maternity center. However, at the time I didn't want to switch to a midwife. This time around I'm second guessing my choice to go with the same doctors and hospital.

Here are my concerns:

1. I want to try to go natural again. Although my experience wasn't bad last time it may be different this time if I don't actually get the epidural. My doctors and the hospital aren't exactly known for being natural birth friendly.

2. I don't want to leave MG. I know this sounds strange but it's an honest fear of mine. I have never left her. The longest she has been away from me is for a quick trip to the grocery store down the street with K. I have so much anxiety about leaving her already. I'm afraid that my fears may stall labor. I think I would be most comfortable knowing that she was being taken care of in the next room by my doula or K or possibly my sister.

3. I fear an unforeseen emergency.

4. I fear being transferred to the hospital and having to see an on call doctor and nurses who might not respect my wishes.

I'm already 27 weeks so of we are going to make this switch we have to do it very soon. I'm going to call around to set up interviews with midwives tomorrow.

If you could say a little prayer for peace of mind and clarity I would so appreciate it! Thank you! Thank you!


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