I think today is CD1. I woke up to spotting this morning. I knew it was coming. I think my new lp is 13 days rather than 12. Seems to be the new trend. I don't think I'm going to say much more about it. I'm pretty upset and talking about it just makes things worse. So that's it. Better luck next time.
Today is dh's 29th birthday. Woohoo! I've still got to get his present and I have no clue what to get him. Nothing like last minute right? DH also said he didn't want to go out to dinner he'd rather have dinner here. So I'm off to get some tuna and mahi from Fresh Market today. As soon as I can get my lazy butt off this couch. These cramps and this headache are making things difficult.
So speaking of cramps. I need surgery and I just don't want to think about it. But I need to think about it. But I really don't want to. From the day that I started seeing Dr. G she has said she wanted me to go have surgery with Dr. Hildgers. She finally said the word that I had been asking doctors about since I was about 16. Endometriosis. (I guess I should work on finishing my history that I started like forever ago) She said that I seemed like such a classic case and that if I don't have endo she would be absolutely shocked.
I know that I have it. I can't explain how I know, I just do. I've known since I was a teenager I just couldn't get a doctor to listen to me.
I was talking to dh last night and said that one way or the other we have to figure out how to do this surgery. If I have endo completely taking over my lady parts then all of this stuff we're doing could be completely pointless. We could be spinning our wheels with like a 0% chance of actually conceiving.
Here's the issue. We live in Florida. Plane tickets for the two of us would be about $1500. Plus a hotel stay for 9 days (Dr. G said that's how long we'll have to stay before they will let me back on a plane). I have really, really crappy insurance that isn't going to cover much if any of this. How much do you think the surgery would cost out of pocket? I don't even want to think about that. And then, there is always the chance that Dr. H will go in and see too much and make me come back for another more invasive surgery. Which will me lots more money.
I just don't know how we can do it. It stresses me out to think about it. I feel like I am sort of between a rock and a hard place. I've been praying about it but I still don't feel like I have any answers.
Well...I'm off to take care of some birthday things. Hopefully the rain will stay away for a little while. Although I have lived here my whole life I just can't get used to the soupy feeling in the summer. YUCK!
