Hope-Pray-Trust: Oct 21, 2010

...I married my best friend.

At times I cannot believe that it has been 4 years. At other times I feel like it has been a life time.

There is a country song out there by Brad Paisley called "I thought I Loved You Then." Song gets me every time. It is basically about the different stages of a couples life (dating, engagement, marriage, etc.). After each description of time he says "And I thought I loved you then." I feel like this perfectly describes our relationship.

DH and I dated for 4.5 years before we were engaged. The day he proposed is forever etched in my mind. I remember standing there and realizing what was happening and thinking there is no way I could possibly love him more than I do at this moment. But on our wedding day I found our I was wrong. Standing at the back of the church looking down the isle we locked eyes and my heart grew tenfold. I thought I loved him more at that moment than was ever possible. Then the truth of our infertility set in. It didn't take long after realizing this was going to be a long journey that I realized I loved him even more. The way he comforted me day after day, month after month, year after year just amazed me. Last May when I finally told dh that I wanted to convert his reaction made my heart swell once more. It was something that definitely drew us closer than anything had before. It was a way of uniting us even deeper.

Then came the day that I finally saw those 2 pink lines. My heart nearly burst. I ran to dh who was standing in the kitchen. I had tears streaming down my face and I couldn't speak. I was in utter shock and amazement. I just held the test up to show him. He looked at me and all he said was "I love you." He grabbed me as my knees nearly buckled underneath me and we just stood there sobbing and hugging. At that moment my heart grew once more as I realized my love for him was growing even deeper. That very night was the first day I received my first Communion. Our priest had dh come up with me and receive at the same time. He told us to remember that back before wedding ceremonies couples would be united in marriage by simply coming to the priest to receive communion together. He said that this day was a day that would join us together in a deeper way that we could have ever imagined. He was right.

On this day last year we went to a Mass in a neighboring town that was being said for all couples dealing with infertility. On the day that we married I never thought that that was how we would spend on of our anniversaries. As I knelt during Mass I prayed so hard that God would give us a baby to hold. I had no idea that that gift would be given to us so soon. After I found out I was pregnant Dr. H and Dr. G were both surprised to hear it. Dr. H wasn't hopeful with my hormone levels and was waiting for me to come up for surgery.

It is so hard to imagine that this time next year sweet Mary-Grace will be here in our arms. I will forever be grateful to our Lord for the abundant gifts he has bestowed upon my husband and I. I truly feel unworthy.

Now that I am crying I think I will leave you with a note to my dh and some pictures. :)

K, I love you more today than I did yesterday and I know that love will only continue to grow. The journey we have been on over the last 4 years has not been as we expected but I would not trade a minute of it for the world. Thank you for making these years the best of my life. I cannot wait to see what the rest of our life has in store for us. We now know that sometimes things aren't easy, but together we can make it through anything. I love you from the bottom of my heart. Pinky Swear! :)