Please Keep Praying

Hospice is fairly certain Nana did have a stroke. They believe she had a few TIAs and then a big one. I was told she was doing a bit better yesterday morning. My grandfather sId she was talking. However when I got over there yesterday this was not the case. She seemed worse than she did on Saturday. Hospice says this is terminal and it's just a matter of time.

Please pray for my Nana!

Please also keep my family in your prayers. We are a very close family. And especially remember my grandfather. He is trying to be strong but I can see how hard this is for him.

Can you also please pray for me? I've become very angry. I don't know how to explain it. We had a scare with her last May. I begged God to keep her her. Although nit pregnant yet, I wanted her to meet my baby. She was placed on Hospice but was doing better. After I found out I was pregnant she got better and better. I believe Mary-Grace gave her something to look forward to. She even was released from Hospice.

I was Looking forward to her meeting MG. I was looking forward to her being at my baby shower in 3 weeks. And I know she was too.

I feel very angry with God right now. I'm selfish I know. But I want her here! I want Mary-Grace to meet her Nana! Who is going to help me learn to be a mom? I have no one else to teach me.

I'm having trouble eating and sleeping. I inky ate once yesterday and that is because K forced me. I haven't slept at all and I can feel my heart racing. I'm sure my blood pressure is up. My anxiety is through the roof. I'm worried about how this is affecting Mary-Grace. She needs her mama to eat. I just can't seem to make myself. I feel terrible. I have a appointment with my doctor tomorrow. I bought I'd mention this to him but I doubt he can help me.

Thank you all so much for your prayers. I will update when I can.



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