On Monday I went to see my Nana (she was released from the hospital on Saturday). She look terrible. Not responsive and totally out of it. I don't think she even knew I was there. It's hard because 2 weeks ago I was over there and she was totally fine. My grandfather ended up having to call 911 again that night. She's been in ICU ever since. I went to see her yesterday and she looked much much better. They are hoping that she can get out of ICU by Sunday and moved into a regular room. They are still bringing hospice in though. Apparently her kidneys were shutting down. The doctor thinks that because she had not had anything to eat or drink for over a week (from being so sick), and continuing to take all of her meds (she takes A LOT!) her kidneys went into overdrive and couldn't function. I was happy to see that she was feeling pretty good, or at least as good as can be expected, yesterday. She was being her usual sassy self so I know she must be feeling a bit better. If you can continue to pray for her recovery I know my family would greatly appreciate it.
On some more positive notes (I need to get myself out of the "funk" so I'm going to talk about happier things)...
Have any of you heard of the book Discovering The Feminine Genius: Every Woman's Journey by Katrina Zeno? DH came across it...I think he heard about it on Catholic Answers Live. It got really good reviews so I'm hoping it's good. I love to read but I get really bored with self-help, how to live your life kinda books and supposedly this is more in story format. We'll see...
School is out in 12.5 working days! Woohoo! I have never been so happy for a school year to end in my life. I think I'm even more excited then I was when I was the one actually in school. This has been to longest most stressful school year yet. I was beginning to think I might not make it without having to be put on the funny farm. Fortunately the end is in sight! This will be the first year I'm not working in the summer. I am sooooooo excited! I have about 1,000 projects planned to keep me busy. My house is going to finally get some attention.
I'm a bit afraid that come August I'm not going to want to come back. I feel with every fiber of my being that I am called to be at home. I feel like I'm just working to pass the time. I know that sounds terrible, and I do love what I do, but I would much rather be at home. I hate that I can't devote the attention I want to my house and my husband. I feel such an internal struggle. DH wishes I could stay home too. I feel guilty talking about it with him because I know he feels bad. Unfortunately with the economy we need my income. In our plans it wasn't supposed to be this way. But then again those were our plans and obviously not God's. Maybe this summer he will get a raise...or maybe we'll hit the lottery! :)
I think I've talked DH into getting a friend for little Oscar Dog. :) I've always had dogs...for as long as I can remember...and I've always had at least two. When DH and I got married it was the first time I had ever not had a dog. I begged and begged and begged. But unfortunately DH had never had a pet at all. He comes from a non animal loving family. I mean seriously non animal loving! After about 14 months of begging DH (this is just the first 14 months we were married...I do recall beginning the begging before then...I knew it would take awhile) he finally caved and we got Oscar. He has grown to love that silly little dog as much as I do. So, after about 6 months of having him I started planting the seed that maybe we needed another one. Dogs are pack animals you know? They are much happier when they have a friend. :) And I think he finally sees it my way. :) I'm hoping to go look this weekend at the SPCA and the Humane Society. We do want another dachshund though. I just love those little guys. Such personalities!
Look at this little guy! Isn't he just too cute!
