I feel like I've been a super bad blogger lately. I haven't posted much and I certainly haven't been commenting much. I don't know what my deal is lately. Stress I guess. And perhaps a little bit of mush for brains.
I figure I should update a little. This is sort of going to be in quick take form because that seems to be the easiest way to do it...and I'm pretty lazy lately. ;)
I am 20 weeks and 5 days today. Seriously? When the heck did that happen. Feels like just yesterday I was contemplating whether or not that second pink line was a result of the HCG injections or if it was for real. I just cannot believe that I am half way there already. It still seems so surreal. And no, I still haven't taken a bump picture. I'm so mad at myself for not doing that at all. All of those years of praying for a baby I would think about taking a picture every week. So much for that idea. As silly as this sounds I blame it on poor self image. I've been having a really hard time and feeling a lot like an ompa lumpa. I've always struggled with body image so I'm not totally surprised that it's still bothering me now. It doesn't seem to matter how much dh tells me how beautiful I am I just struggle to see it myself. I'm working on it though. DH and I are going to go see a movie this weekend and have a nice dinner out. Since I'll be dressed nicer than I usually am I think I'll get him to take a picture. Maybe I'll have someone take one of the two of us so I don't feel so insecure. I am definitely more comfortable when I am not the only one in a photo. I promise to post it as soon as I get it.
We have our anatomy scan tomorrow. I'm excited to get to see Mary-Grace again but also nervous. I get a bit nervous before every ultrasound but this one seems to be bothering me more. At our 17 week scan the tech did a few measurements and said she was looking good so far so you would think I would be doing ok. I really have no real reason to worry. I'm just a worrier by nature. I'm really trying to work on that.
Our neighborhood had a community garage sale this weekend. DH and I have been cleaning out the room that is going to be Mary-Grace's room and decided to try to sell a few things. It ended up working great! We sold a bunch of old stuff and came out a few hundred dollars richer. We plan on putting it towards furniture for her room. Funny thing about the room we cleaned out is that we never actually had it set up as anything. It was sort of a storage room. When we first got married I knew right away it would be the nursery so I just figured why do anything with it to just have to change it. Seemed like a waste of time and money. Four years later and it just turned into the junk room. Anything we didn't know what to do with just sort of landed there. Including boxes on mine and K's that we never opened after moving in. I've decided that all the stuff that didn't sell is going to Good.will this week. It feels so good to get rid of all the old junk that never found a place here. Next up. Cleaning out the garage. It has about 10 boxes of mine from when I moved here that never got opened. I was considering just throwing them away without even opening them but was a little worried there might be some pictures in some of them.
I'm finally getting into the swing of this whole stay at home wife thing. I felt like such a lazy brat at first. I was just so sick for so long that I didn't do anything. Not that I've ever been good at keeping a house. I've always wanted to be but it's just not my thing. I just always felt overwhelmed and didn't know where to start. This usually ended up in me getting frustrated and just not doing anything. It really was pathetic. However in the last week I've sort of got this itch to get this house in order. I'm going to definitely say it's nesting. I even typed out a spreadsheet on Exce.l with the things that need to be done and on what day of the week I will be doing them. My thinking is that if I do a little everyday it won't run away from me. Now if I can just stick with it.
My wonderful best friend S is engaged to this wonderful man J. I'm so insanely happy for them. They got engaged last May after 4 years of dating and living together and buying a house together (no I do not approve of this but she still is my dearest friend). Anyhoo. Her fiance's parent's have a timeshare in Orlando that we got to use for 2 nights last December. S, J, K and I went for the weekend of my birthday and had an absolute blast. The timeshare was beautiful and S always knows how to make sure I have a good time. We went to Mickey's Ver.y Me.rry Christ.mas on Friday night (it's where you go to Disne.y from 7pm until I believe Midnight and it's all Christmas themed and wonderful!). The next day dh and I went to Ep.cot for my birthday. Last year Flori.da residents got in free on their actual birthday and mine happened to land on a Saturday. PERFECT! We had a blast! They gave me a birthday pin to wear on my shirt and everywhere we went all of the cast members were telling me happy birthday (yes, I'm a 5 year old and this makes me super happy). K and I also got a lot of free stuff (food, drinks, and such) as well as bypassing long lines. It was just a lot of fun. Well, S called me yesterday and told me that they were getting the timeshare for 3 nights this year the weekend of my birthday and wanted to know if we wanted to go again. SUPER! We are definitely a lot lighter in the funds department this year with me no longer working but I think we can swing going to Mick.ey's Ver.y Mer.ry Chri.stmas. The tickets are cheaper than a regular days admission which is now $81. Seriously? $81/ person is ridiculous! I am so unbelievably excited for this little mini vacation. And I am so happy to have such a wonderful friend who things of me for these sorts of things. It would be so easy for her just to go with her fiance. I'm sure they would like a nice weekend to themselves but she always thinks of me. She is even coming up with some sort of non-alcoholic sparkly drink for me to toast my birthday with since champagne, which is our birthday tradition, is obviously out of the question this year. :)
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| K and I at dinner for my birthday last year. |
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| S and J at that same birthday dinner. |
Okidokie. I think that will be it for now. I have a post in mind that I will hopefully get to tomorrow after my appointment. TaTa for now!
