Prayers for a little girl

Back in 2009 a my friend's niece was diagnosed with a very rare form of stage 5 neuroblastoma. She was only 2.5 years old. The doctors explained that her chances were extremely extremely low. Bella, was strong and fought very hard. Her parents flew her back and forth from our children's hospital to one in New York regularly. Miraculously, after many treatments, a lot of them experimental, Bella went into remission. She has been cancer free for some time now (I believe over a year). Sadly, this week the discovered a 4cm tumor in her neck. After further tests they have now found several masses in her liver. Back when Bella was diagnosed, her parents were told that if she ever did go into remission and the cancer returned, her chances of surviving would be even less. They explained that when cancer returns it returns bigger and stronger. Bella and her parents are heading to New York to find out what the next step is. I cannot imagine what they are going through. I have been in tears since hearing the news. As parents we do everything in our power to protect our babies...we cannot protect them from this. It is gut wrenching. Please, please pray for Bella and her family. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone so please excuse they typos. My phone thinks it's smarter than me.

I did it!!!

I made the switch! I broke up with my OB's and hired a midwife. I feel slightly crazy doing this do far along (I'm 33 weeks) but I'm confident (at least I keep telling myself that) that we have made the right decision. We had a consultation last week and our first official appointment today. I was so pleased at how wonderful it went! We will be delivering at home (God willing) but my appointments are at the midwife's office until I get to 36 weeks - then she'll come to my house. Her office feels nothing like a doctor's office. She has a lending library full of books to borrow, snacks, water, toys for little ones, etc. etc. We didn't wait at all and she schedules 45 minutes for each appointment - and actually uses it! We talked about how I was feeling, how the baby is doing, any fears, concerns, questions I have. She gave me great tips and suggestions. It was great! Then we listened to Hannah's heart beat and she measured me (33 weeks, so perfect). We discussed my next appointment and she told me to call (on her cell) if I had any concerns. It was so wonderful and relaxing! Right now the only hang ups are my OB's office (they still haven't sent my records) and our insurance (who is giving them the run around). Other than that, all is great! I've also contacted a doula who comes to me highly recommended. I loved our doula last time but she had a baby a few months ago and isn't taking clients yet. :( Just talking to this doula on the phone I think I'm going to like her. She seems a little hippie dippie, but that tends to come with the territory. So now all I have to do is keep growing this baby and get our house ready for a birth and a new little one. I cannot believe how fast this is going! I know the next 4-9 weeks are going to fly by. I'm ready...but I'm not ready. I'm feeling more attached to Mary-Grace than ever right now. I'm trying to savor every moment I have with her before her little world gets flipped upside down and my time gets divided in two. Please feel free to send me your prayer requests. I would love, love, love to pray for you during labor. :) - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone so please excuse they typos. My phone thinks it's smarter than me.

When will we get a break?

Remember I told you a few posts back that I've become scared to answer the phone? It seems like every other time a family member calls me it isn't good news. Well...I should have listened to my own advice... I got a call on Saturday morning from my dad. My Grandad (Nana's husband) was taken to the hospital for a possible stroke. After 3 days and countless tests, the determined that he has a hole in his heart that cased a TIA. We were all shocked. This man, at 73 is the picture of health. He seems to be doing well. They have put him on blood thinners to hopefully prevent this from happening again. Then this morning my sister called. I asked you all to pray for her marriage in my previous post. Her husband found out yesterday that he is more than likely losing his job. He will know for sure on Monday. He is the sole provider for my sister and their 3 children (ages 7,3, and 7 months). They live paycheck to paycheck as it is and barely make it as it is. Even by collecting unemployment, there will be no way they can afford even the basics like food and rent. She said her husband feels worthless. He feels like he can't take care of his family and is an absolute mess. My heart is breaking for them. Any prayers you can spare for them would be so appreciated! - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone so please excuse they typos. My phone thinks it's smarter than me.

It's that time...

I have 8 weeks until my due date! MG came a week early so who knows this time around. I want to go ahead and get my prayer list going so I can start praying now. I did this last time and had your prayers memorized by the time labor came. It made it do easy to pray for y'all. If you would like me to pray for you during labor please leave me a comment with your intention or email me at ktmathewson at gmail dot com. Also, if you could say a little prayer for me tonight. K an I are meeting with a home birth midwife tonight to decide if we really do want to do this at home. Prayers for peace an clarity would be much appreciated! - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone so please excuse they typos. My phone thinks it's smarter than me.

Christmas - Picture Overload!

I'm so far behind!  I figured I can't go on without doing a little post about Christmas.  It was, after all, our first Christmas with our Peanut!

Since K and I have been married we do Christmas Eve with his parents and brother followed by Midnight Mass (his family included).  Then we have a low key Christmas Morning where I make Monkey Bread and then head to my grandparents house to spend Christmas Day with my family.  After that we usually make a pit stop at my best friends parent's home for some late night drinks (read: lots of champagne).

This year we had to switch it up a bit.  There was no way MG was going to make it to Midnight Mass!  Instead we opted to go to Mass on Christmas Morning just as a family of 3.  Although I missed the feeling you get at Midnight (there's just something about it) it was nice and not nearly as crowded.

Enough of my ramblings...Here's our first Christmas as a family of three in pictures.  Hard to believe next year there will be another little one hear with us to celebrate.

Let's start with Christmas Eve...

She was so excited to open her presents!

"Momma!  I got a pony!!!"

The paper is definitely more fun!

Her facial expressions kill me!

Mary-Grace with her Great Grandmother "GG"

Sadly, this is the best family picture we got.

Christmas Morning...My dad joined us so that he could be here for Mary-Grace's first Christmas. :)

That face!  I die!

She seriously loves this thing!  K takes her for a ride on it every night.

Christmas Mass Dress!

Christmas Day at my grandparents... We slacked on pictures there. :(

Elf on the Shelf!

My Sweet Peanut like to bully her cousin Olivia around. :0/

 

After leaving my Granddad's house we did make a quick pit stop at Sophie's parent's house. Of course I left my camera in the car. :(

It really was a wonderful, but very busy, two days.  K also ended up having the week after Christmas off from work which made for a fabulous week, despite all three of us having the plague that lasted FOREVER (like 3 weeks!).

I cannot wait to see what Christmas is like next year.  Two babies!  There will be two babies to celebrate Christmas with us next year!  I am in absolute shock!

My View

Mary-Grace saying hi to her little sister, Hannah. :)


Please excuse the pj's. :) - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone so please excuse they typos. My phone thinks it's smarter than me.

An Attack

Do you ever feel like you are being attacked by Satan?  I think he has seriously been attacking my whole family over the past 2ish years.  I think it's possible that he's gaining momentum and I'm trying my hardest to stop him.  However, I feel like I've hit a brick wall.

It has been one thing after the other for every member of my family.  Let's start with about a year and a half ago...well May 2010.  My Nana ended up hospitalized...twice.  The first time she went in she was misdiagnosed and then sent home.  I went to see her and I was certain she was dying.  My Granddad had her taken back to the hospital and they diagnosed her right.  Her kidneys were failing due to some medications her doctors put her on.  Lovely!  They sent her home on Hos.pice.  Two months later my Granddad's best friend since early childhood dies...

Things appear to be improving.  Then on New Year's Eve (2010-2011) my middle sister heads to the ER.  She is 13 weeks pregnant at the time and bleeding heavily.  Fortunately Baby is ok but she is put on bead rest.  The very next morning my Nana has a stroke which leads to the worst week of my life as I watch her die.

Some time after that my dad finds out he is losing his house.  Then my sister's baby is born but placed in the NICU.

Now on the one year anniversary of my Nana's death, my youngest sister finds out she has miscarried her first baby.  She was not expecting to become pregnant so quickly (she conceived immediately after getting married in November) but was very happy and excited.  As it turns out she was married on what would have been Nana and Granddad's 52nd Wedding Anniversary (planned) and the baby was due on August 22nd (my dad's birthday...their first son).  I think this gave her a special connection to our Nana.

Now my middle sister (the one from above who had the baby in the NICU) is having some marriage struggles that are absolutely breaking my heart.  I don't want to go into details but it is so unbelievably sad.  She and her husband have 3 beautiful children...they absolutely MUST work this out!

Of course there have been about a million other things going on left and right (these are just the big things).  It's exhausting!  I've gotten to the point where I am absolutely terrified to answer my phone for fear of what's wrong now.

Oh, and that sister above who just had the miscarriage...she has (I think in the last year and a half or so) gotten into a lot of new age type beliefs...Reik.ki (spelling?) to be more specific.  It seriously terrifies me!  I have no clue how to even approach it.

I wish I could bathe my entire family in Holy Water.  I told K we need to get our priest out to bless our home since it hasn't been done yet.

I'm looking for some prayers...maybe novenas.  I'm thinking a general one I could say for my entire family...then maybe one for my sister who is having the marriage trouble...then another for my sister who is into the scary stuff.  Any suggestions?  I googled but was overwhelmed.

Right now I'm just praying for peace for my entire family.  We sure do need it.